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A note left on a thick book:
I once communed with a soul who shared a tale of deep sorrow from his youth. "So that the truth wouldn't be lost," he said. Interestingly enough, he could only bear to recall the event after death, when the memory had lost its sting.
(l cannot share the tale. A Watcher must keep the confidences of the dead.)
Your experience with what you call "the Titan's Shade" brought this anecdote to mind. As you say, in the first moments of your transformation, you were unable or unwilling to confront the depth of the Titans' sorrow. But unlike my friend, this pain was never quite your own. Instead of being trapped within, it fled elsewhere.
If you'd like further reading, here's a copy of The Soul of Emotion by Hedda Grahntevale. It's a fascinating look into the effect of emotion on the mortal body and soul.